Fall together -The Tempertrap-

You and me, know we're meant to be
maybe we'll never know
you and me are worst enemies
cause we don't believe anymore 

:)

bismillahirahmanirrahim

Indeed , Allah is the best planners

Coucou

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

hello again, i've just realized that im gettin older .. by counting the tick tock

yet , i haven't done anything great .. nor being a succesful woman

shame on me hahah yes

ambitious, i used to be, but now, feels like i wash it away from my step

and i think

it is the time

for me to wake up

to get up

to rebuild

to repair

and to be stronger

i need to get back the way i used to be

to reach you

my dream city

hey, listen up

i promise

one day,. sooner or later

i will put "me" inside those view w/o photoshope-ing

one day, u'll see me standing between those iconic symbol "la tour eiffel"

yeah keep my words!!!!

aamiin insyaaAllah

Vénus

Victor Hugo

Ciel ! un fourmillement emplit l’espace noir,
On entend l’invisible errer et se mouvoir ;
Près de l’homme endormi tout vit dans les ténèbres.
Le crépuscule, plein de figures funèbres,
Soupire ; au fond des bois le daim passe en rêvant ;
A quelque être ignoré qui flotte dans le vent
La pervenche murmure à voix basse : je t’aime !
La clochette bourdonne auprès du chrysanthème
Et lui dit : paysan, qu’as-tu donc à dormir ?
Toute la plaine semble adorer et frémir ;
L’élégant peuplier vers le saule difforme
S’incline ; le buisson caresse l’antre ; l’orme
Au sarment frissonnant tend ses bras convulsifs ;
Les nymphaeas, pour plaire aux nénuphars pensifs,
Dressent hors du flot noir leurs blanches silhouettes ;
Et voici que partout, pêle-mêle, muettes,
S’éveillent, au milieu des joncs et des roseaux,
Regardant leur front pâle au bleu miroir des eaux,
Courbant leur tige, ouvrant leurs yeux, penchant leurs urnes,
Les roses des étangs, ces coquettes nocturnes ;
Des fleurs déesses font des lueurs dans la nuit,
Et, dans les prés, dans l’herbe où rampe un faible bruit,
Dans l’eau, dans la ruine informe et décrépite,
Tout un monde charmant et sinistre palpite.
C’est que là-haut, au fond du ciel mystérieux,
Dans le soir, vaguement splendide et glorieux,
Vénus rayonne, pure, ineffable et sacrée,
Et, vision, remplit d’amour l’ombre effarée.

Victor Hugo, Toute la lyre

LA JOIE

Bismillahirrohmanirrohim

la joie, est un nom..

est une phrase

aussi, est un sentiment

recemment

j'sais pas pourquoi

mais,

je trouve

je me sens

le papillon

dance dans mon ventre

je veux tout le temps

sourire

en memorisant

ce qui se passe

c'est

Grâce à toi

La Joie

re post

Peri kehilangan sayapnya

Semesta tak diam sejadi-jadinya

Ia mulai saling berbisik

Akan sayap yang mulai malu

Menyapa angin pada kepakan arogansi

Menggugurkan bulu-bulu putih

Berganti merah paruh baya

Ada doa yang baru

Terselip aroma mawar didalamnya

Memberi isyarat

Bahwa hati tetap tidak tunduk

Akan rasa yang mulai semena-mena

Tak pernah tanyakan keadilan

Kenggunan masih dipangkunya

Langit mulai ramai

Pada penghuni yang bertandang

Dialah tamu yang lahir dari tubuh

Seorang peri..

Sebab tak mampu menandahi kelopak-kelopak yang menyentuhnya

Mewangi dibalik bilik-bilik sempit

Meranahi kesucian

Oh betapa manisnya

Madu-madu yang disuguhkan

Nikmatilah peri

Tatkala dirimu terkoyak

Semut-semut yang meengerubungi hatimu..

by : IDJ

Astaghfirullah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

tidak terasa, 2 minggu sudah bulan pengampunan berjalan.

tak terasa pula, amal ini kian kerontang.

Astaghfirullah 'aladzim

tak ada kata yang dapat ku ungkapkan melainkan istighfar

mengapa semua begitu menyulitkan

mengapa semua terlihat begitu kusut

ternyata

ruhiyah yang menguning

tak pernah disiram

oleh Qur'an dan Dzikrullah

Astaghfirullah 'aladzim

Faghfirlii ya Robbi

20.52
Pondok Labu

I HATE YOU, I LOVE YOU Lyric By GNASH

Feeling used

still missing you

and i can't

see the end of this

just wanna feel your kiss

against my lips

and now all this time

is passing by

but i still can't seem to tell you why

it hurts me every time i see you

realize how much i need you

[olivia o'brien:]

i hate you i love you

i hate that i love you

don't want to, but i can't put

nobody else above you

i hate you i love you

i hate that i want you

you want her, you need her

and i'll never be her

[gnash:]

i miss you when i can't sleep

or right after coffee

or right when i can't eat

i miss you in my front seat

still got sand in my sweaters

from nights we don't remember

do you miss me like i miss you?

fucked around and got attached to you

friends can break your heart too, and

i'm always tired but never of you

if i pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit

i put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit

i type a text but then i nevermind that shit

i got these feelings but you never mind that shit

oh oh, keep it on the low

you're still in love with me but your friends don't know

if u wanted me you would just say so

and if i were you, i would never let me go

i don't mean no harm

i just miss you on my arm

wedding bells were just alarms

caution tape around my heart

you ever wonder what we could have been?

you said you wouldn't and you fucking did

lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix

now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed

always missing people that i shouldn't be missing

sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance

i know that i control my thoughts and i should stop reminiscing

but i learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

when love and trust are gone

i guess this is moving on

everyone i do right does me wrong

so every lonely night, i sing this song

[olivia o'brien gnash:]

i hate you i love you

i hate that i love you

don't want to, but i can't put

nobody else above you

i hate you i love you

i hate that i want you

you want her, you need her

and i'll never be her

[olivia o' brien gnash:]

all alone i watch you watch her

like she's the only girl you've ever seen

you don't care you never did

you don't give a damn about me

yeah all alone i watch you watch her

she's the only thing you've ever seen

how is it you never notice

that you are slowly killing me

[olivia o'brien:]

i hate you i love you

i hate that i love you

don't want to, but i can't put

nobody else above you

i hate you i love you

i hate that i want you

you want her, you need her

and i'll never be her

KAE lyric by Chris Brown

every time, every time you tell me you gon’ change
every time, every time you tell me you gon’ change
you’re never right, it’s probably best we go our separate ways
if you look in my eyes, you gotta know it’s true
told me a million lies but i still try to make due
baby, i gave you time and always more
baby, you got what you want and now i’m paying for it

oh, you’re supposed to love, with a love that’s official
talking all that sh*t gonna make me f*ck around and go missing, oh
and don’t try to make up cause i’m fine

cause you’re a stranger in my eyes
oh-oh-oh-oh
stranger in my eyes
oh-oh-oh-oh
you’re a stranger in my…

i’mma be okay
my path can only get clearer
live int he moment, keep you in my back mirror, oh
what you gonna do when n*body’s at home? yeah
shoulda thought of that when you turned so cold babe

oh, you’re supposed to love, with a love that’s official
talking all that sh*t gonna make me f**k around and go missing, oh
and don’t try to make up cause i’m fine

cause you’re a stranger in my eyes
oh-oh-oh-oh
stranger in my eyes
oh-oh-oh-oh
you’re a stranger in my…

we were meant to fall, fall right out of love
and i can’t even say that you were there for me girl
we were meant to fall, fall right out of love
and i can’t even say that you were there for me girl

girl, you’re supposed to love, with a love that’s official
talking all that sh*t gonna make me f**k around and go missing, oh
and don’t try to make up cause i’m fine

cause you’re a stranger in my eyes
oh-oh-oh-oh
stranger in my eyes
oh-oh-oh-oh
you’re a stranger in my…

stranger in my
you’re a stranger my… oh
stranger in my

Never Forget You lyric from Zara Larsson ft Mnek

[Zara Larsson:]
I used to be so happy
But without you here I feel so low
I watched you as you left but I can never seem to let you go
'Cause once upon a time you were my everything
It's clear to see that time hasn't changed a thing
It's buried deep inside me but I feel there's something you should know
I will never forget you
You'll always be by my side
From the day that I met you
I knew that I would love you 'til the day I die
And I will never want much more
And in my heart I will always be sure
I will never forget you
And you will always be by my side 'til the day I die
'Til the day I die ('til the day I die)
'Til the day I die ('til the day I die)
[MNEK:]
Funny how we both end up here but everything seems alright
I wonder what will happen
If we went back and put up a fight
'Cause once upon a time you were my everything
It's clear to see that time hasn't changed a thing
So what in this world do you think could ever take you off my mind (take you off my mind)
[Zara Larsson:]
I will never forget you
And you'll always be by my side
From the day that I met you
I knew that I would love you 'til the day I die
And I will never want much more
And in my heart I will always be sure
I will never forget you
And you'll always be by my side 'til the day I die
[Both:]
Feeling it, loving it
Everything that we do
And all along, I knew I had something special with you
But sometimes you just gotta know that these things fall through
But I'm still tired and I can't hide my connection with you
Feeling it, loving it
Everything that we do
And all along, I knew I had something special with you
But sometimes you just gotta know that these things fall through
I can't hide my connection with you
I will never forget you
And you'll always be by my side
From the day that I met you
I knew that I would love you 'til the day I die
And I will never want much more
And in my heart I will always be sure
That I will never forget you
And you'll always be by my side 'til the day I die
'Til the day I die...
I will never forget you...
'Til the day I die.

memories

“Memories are bullets. Some whiz by and only spook you. Others tear you open and leave you in pieces.” 

― Richard Kadrey, Kill the Dead

what a day

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Di penghujung pekan yang biru ini, seorang gadis terseok dengan lidah tajam nya

Tersayat sebuah keris kejujuran, melambungkannya kepada hamparan sebuah ingatan

Bahwa segala sesuatu tak kan pernah sama,

Hari ini kau dicinta, esok kau terluka

Esok  menitikkan air mata, lusa tertawa bahagia

Hidup tak pernah semulus yang kau bayangkan adik kecil,

Berliku, terjal, tak jarang mematikan

..

Hari ini sudah tergaris sebuah suratan

Dimana perjuangan tak semudah membalikkan telapak tangan

Satu hal yang kutahu, kemudahan dan kesulitan selalu berjalan beriringan

Ya, itu takdir Tuhan..

..

Aku tak menuntut macam-macam

Cukup dengan bersamamu saja, Tuhan baiknya sudah kelewatan

..

Tapi ternyata harapanku bertepuk sebelah tangan

..

SLW

*ditulis dengan haru dan pilu*

Ya Rabbi, I'm yours completely

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Ya Illahi Rabbi.. sudah berapa lama rasa ujub ini menyelubungi

sudah berapa jauh maksiat ini melenakan hati

sudah berapa miliar kata, terlontar sia dalam hinanya mulut pendosa ini

sudah berapa tapak, jejak kaki yang tak manfaat mengundang siksa

sudah berapa detik, habis tanpa sisa, jauh dari RidhoNya

si pendosa

ingin kembali ke rumah

memeluk cahaya ArsyNya

menggapai Ridho nan ampunanNya

menyucikan jiwa serta raganya

......

Faghfirli
Faghfirli ya Rabbi :(


SLW

Pemudi Islam repost from miruka-angguna.blogspot.com

Pemudi Islam

Bismillah.

Cerita tentang dinamisasi kelompok mentoring sepekan yang lalu, jumat sore di halaman MNI tercinta.
Membahas seputar pemuda. Apa dan Untuk Siapa.
Belajar menjadi pemudi yang taat pada Tuhannya, pada agamanya, dan menerima fitrahnya dengan penuh syukur.
Pada akhirnya dikeluarkanlah secarik kertas yang dibagi sesuai dengan jumlah mentee, sembilan robekan kertas. Ditulislah komitmen penting di atas kertas-kertas kecil tersebut. Isian rumpang...
"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai..." dan "Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang..."

Voila!

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai orangtuaku.."
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang istiqomah di jalan Allah dan insyaaAllah bisa selalu menaati perintahNya dan menjauhi laranganNya, dan bermanfaat bagi orang lain".
-Shinta

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai hal-hal yang aku sukai.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berguna walaupun untuk hal yang kecil atau sederhana".
-Diva 

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai orang-orang yang membutuhkanku.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berguna bagi Masyarakat."
-Restu

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai Tuhanku, Allah SWT :) dan orangtua.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berjuang di jalan Allah."
-Luluk

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai bangsaku dan segala hal yang telah Allah amanahkan kepadaku.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berguna bagi negara serta agamaku."
-Icut

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai anggota keluargaku.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berguna tak hanya untuk diri sendiri, tetapi untuk masyarakat luas. Aamiin ya Rabbal alamin.."
-Desi

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai ibuku.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berguna bagi bangsa, agama, makhluk hidup lainnya, dan orangtua." 
-Nadya

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai orangtuaku.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang bermanfaat bagi semuanya.."
-Azza

"Aku mencintai agamaku, seperti aku mencintai diri sendiri.." 
"Aku bertekad pada diriku untuk menjadi pemudi Islam yang berguna dan suka menolong."
-Naka 

Beragam jawaban yang mereka miliki.. membuatku tersenyum-senyum mendengarkannya hehe
walau pada kenyataannya CINTA kita akan Islam tak akan pernah sesederhana yang tertulis dalam secarik kertas :)
Namun inilah bentuk kata lain dari sebuah komitmen sebagai pemudi Islam yang akan berguna nantinya. 
InsyaaAllah.

#GerakanAyoMentoring